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that the first time I discover 'House' is when I'm recovering from an operation?!?:op (The achillies Kidneys strike again).

Life is a rollercoaster and I'm still riding it

ya'll have a nice day now

Sylindria

So I almost completely deserted LJ after my Christmas present from one of my mates was blog site of my very own - Thank you you know who you are and I appreciate your mastery of webness on my behalf. Especially as I can drive this thing up to a point but have no idea of the mechanics... maybe one day!

I've also discovered and practially moved into/onto Facebook so I'm also there - if I haven't found you I'm sorry, if you haven't found me I am there and can provide directions.

I do keep raising my head above the parapet to see what everyone is up to and am glad to see I'm not the only one where after a whole load of 'urgh' has happened seems to be having some luck, love and light. For everyone who isn't in a good place I can only give you my wishes that things get better...

I know I keep saying this but 'I aten't dead... and I'm slowly sorting my life out and turning it round one step at a time...

SD (man, myth, legend in his own diving suit) get in touch - it's been a LONG time!

Take care y'all *grins* all the best

Sylindria

You know when you read something that makes your stomach turn over? Right now I really want to get this image out of my mind and go and hug the family dog….

Arrests over dead dog on railway

Two boys, aged 11 and 13, have been arrested after a dog was found dead on a railway line.

The dog, thought to have been tied to the piece of track near Corby in Northamptonshire, is believed to have been hit by a train.

British Transport Police said the dog was found on 3 June and the boys were arrested on 5 June on suspicion of animal cruelty.

They have both been bailed pending further inquiries.

Been burnt

The dog is also thought to have been burnt, although a British Transport Police spokeswoman said it had not been ascertained if this had happened before or after its death.

She said: “I believe a dog was found on the railway tracks. How that dog came to be on the tracks is under investigation.

“All we know at this stage is that two boys have been arrested on suspicion of animal cruelty.

“British Transport Police and Northamptonshire Police are working together.”


http://news.bbc.co.uk/1/hi/england/northamptonshire/7450738.stm

I don’t care if you’re a dog person or a cat perspn…personally I’m both BUT that’s just wrong on so many levels I don’t have words for.

Where’s the firing squad? There’s no hope for these kids.

Sylindria - disgusted

...I'm only sleeping.

Expect hybernation to end when the eather gets warmer.

(though the randomness of my spelling isn't lkely to improve anytime soon!)

Take care y'all

Syl

Hi Guys

I've been pretty quiet lately as the Boyf and I seperated last weekend. I'm currently moving out of the house we shared together and staying with my parents until I can sort out something else. So currently - no job (but am temping), no boyfriend and no fixed address - things can only get better!

I dont have internet at my parents and hopefully I wont be there long enough to need it - HOPEFULLY :op.

I miss you all lots and I promise will catch up with blogs, messages, and bulletins as soon as I can.

Be safe and well

always

Sylindria

Ok this is brief..

Someone really made me angry this weekend, this gave me a LOT to think about - and the general gist is I picked up and buggered off to sort out my head. There's a LOT going on - basically especially now I'm unemployed and some things latly I've not been happy about.

Which is how I found myself at a train station with a flat mobile phone and the clothes I was standing up in. Methinks I've probably done smarter things in my life I could have handled better.

I'm not dead, I'm sorry if I've frightened or worried any of you. I will be back but there's going to be some changes... There's been way too much fall out from this for there not to be.

In the mean time. I aten't dead.

Sylindria

Had my first job interview this morning, have another tomorrow and one next week. Afterwards walked back to town to take the bus to get back to 'MY' town and get home (I really have to get round to taking my driving test :op).

Sun's shining, it's a beautiful day and was packing the ipod, always a plus.

Aparently the Agency's already had some feedback - supposedly I'm a 'livewire' (hmm) and they like me. Which is adding to the good feeling....

Its a new dawn, its a new day, its a new life for me
yeah, its a new dawn its a new day its a new life for me ooooooooh
AND I'M FEELING GOOD

(Nina Simone - the Muse version is still good but I'm stickin' with the original)

Last Wednesday I handed in my notice at work. It's been bugging me for a while - it's the first time I've ever left a job without having one to go to, I figure that there's a first time for everything.

My Boss went off to HR came back and said I could either work my notice, take a month's gardening leave or finish that Evening and receive a months pay in leu of notice. Since I dont have enough garden to justify a month's gardening leave (heck I dont know many people who do) I took the months pay in leu and headed out of the door.

Thursday I was at my Mum and Dad's and Friday I registered with a couple of the local agencies. Friday Night was the Peterborough game and the day after I was 'blessed' with one of my 2/3 day migraines (lovely).

Today I've been called by two of the agencies I registered with - I have three job interviews lined up. One for a Temp position in St Ives, and two more next week. Apparently there's been a lot of interest in my CV so I'm keeping my fingers crossed and I'll keep you posted.

Have a great week

Sylindria (hangin' in here)

Ok 'fess up time.

I went to see Wicked last night, I enjoy theatre and musicals are an infrequent guilty pleasure. I'd resisited them for years then back in 2000 my mum started getting us tickets, so of course I had to return the favour and the occassional show tune started to appear in my cd collection. Anyway got tickets for Wicked in London a while ago on recommendation from my sister and Tim (aka Nick McMillan).

Anyway I'm sitting there partway through the first act thinking 'hmm not grabbed by this'...and then the story kind of snuck up on me and reeled me in...the leading lady had a fantastic voice, there's a lot of humour in the script and by the time we got to the end of the first half I was hooked, line and sinker. There are a lot of good songs (silly to say when you go to a musical but some of them can be hit and miss). I came home and downloaded the soundtrack from itunes at about 1am and am currently trying to wear it out, especially 'Defying Gravity'. I think it's going to end up in the 'feel good' playlist section of the ipod. (Named 'big block of cheese - why are so many feelgood tracks cheesy? - answers on a postcard). If you're in anyway curious try the link below:

http://myspacetv.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=vids.individual&videoid=1246452

I'm thinking about reading the book they based the show on now, my sister may be coming home this weekend she says if she does she'll bring me a copy (she has two)... I would recommend the show though - wouldn't mind seeing it again but Avenue Q's next on my list...adult muppets - maybe I'm regressing?

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you can't pull me down!


Sylindria

If I could do cartwheels I would do, I could do backflips down the road right now....as is I'm going to be down at the Met Lounge with music and friends this evening and it's gonna feel GOOD.

About a month or so ago couple of things happened which involved a trip to my Dr - my gp took a load of bloods ran a lot of tests signed me off work for a while and after grudgingly deciding to let me go back to work told me I'd got a lot of symptoms that sugested there might be something else in my head apart from random thoughts and grey matter and the blood tests had been 'inconclusive'. When I got an appointment come through from the local hospital to see the nurologist and it was in less than two weeks (The NHS tends to move slow unless it's 'serious') I started to worry. The closer it got the more I ended up thinking about it....

To cut a long story short there is a brain between my ears (I've seen it and can now remove all doubt) and despite my somewhat tangental thought processes it's healthy and in pretty good shape.

Relieved is the closest I can come to how I'm feeling right now and even then it seems too mild a description for how I'm feeling.

Things are looking good.

Sylindria

Ok - I get to blame the Boyf (indirectly) for this one. This is going to be one of my -try to follow the train of thought posts- you have been warned!

Read a blog over on My Space (I now have a my space account just so I can subscribe to it...) which mentioned 'love of my life' - which after giving me three seconds of remembering the Queen song started my brain ticking over. My 'personal' life is in a pretty good place right now (even if my professional and social lives could do with a little work), but I know a couple of people for whom it's not the case.

There's an idea in fiction & fable of 'Soul mates', along with star crossed lovers which goes back further than Romeo & Juliet, all the way back to Arthurian legend and probably further back when history was passed from mouth to mouth because most of the population couldn't read and write. The idea that there's just one perfect person in the whole world for you, but that person is the other half that makes you whole. It's a very seductive idea but while I admit to a certain belief in fate - I dont know if it's that selective or that cruel. Imagine being born at the 'wrong' time, in the 'wrong place' - the world is huge finding one person in it is kinda like looking for a very small needle in a very big haystack.

Sweeping generalisation time - 'we' have a tendancy to fall in love,lust or yearn for someone based on who we think they are - if the relationship happens then it's a discovery process...if it survives that you either grow together or grow apart. Let's face it even if we're brutally honest with ourselves about who we are (and finding out who you are is a voyage of discovery in it's own right) it's hard to judge someone else - who may be fighting the same inner deamons, hauling the same amount of baggage or just as confused as everyone else.

But people seem to look for perfection,and not just in people. We have a higher divorce rate and more people going for plastic surgery than ever before... Two of the happiest marriages I know - which includes my parents (and the Boyf's parents) involves fighting, shouting, making up and getting along. You've got to compromise to make it...it's just what and where you make your compromises...

My mum once told me as you move through life you meet eight people (not sure where she got the number from) who could be right for you. Sometimes the timing is right, sometimes it's wrong it's what you and they both do. I met one of mine once when I was in a relationship - while it gave me an 'internal' crisis of my own for a while, I let that one pass me by...not for his lack of trying...but apart from the occassional 'what if' moment we move on.

I once read something in a book I dont remember the title or plot but which stuck with me:

"Come I take all of you, the good and the bad together. I cannot love people in slices". You cant just take the 'good parts' version of someone and try to force a change or just ouright ignore the rest.

While soul mates are a lovely idea, I think they're just that.

Sylindria

Before you jump;
Tell me what you find
When you read my mind

I promise no spoilers!

Saturday morning, woke up at 5, woke up at 6, woke up at 7 - finally gave up and stayed awake...
Postman arrived at 9 - with two boxes from Amazon - his knocking at the door woke up the Boyf as I'm boucing up the stairs yelling 'they're here' he's going 'is it here yet?'.

Two excided texts from Mum and Trina whose coppies both arrived, followed up by a text from Dave aka 'the Funk Soul Badger' (dont ask) who had just got his copy (I was a great gifter of this book #grins#).

Katrina's text more or less summed it up 'It's here Let reading commence!'.

I read fast, always have done - and finished it just before lunch - (which was a good job or we wouldn't have had any). Best way to describe it is on a warm day have you ever gone into a pub or cafe and had a really cold drink - and although you want to savour it you drink it very fast 'cause it's so good? Well it was kinda like that.

Trina finshed about 3(ish), Boyf about 7pm - I took Trina's advice and called out for pizza on the grounds no one was moving! Mum had gone to bed with a book (and Havoc who thought she was in heaven) and didn't move until she was done - since Mum is the slower reader this was about 3pm on Sunday. Dad reckons it's the quietest weekend he has had in years!

No spoilers but It's a VERY good book - with all the backstory out of the way in books 1 - 6 Rowling just hits the ground running and the pace doesn't let up.. I'm going to read it again #grins# maybe a little slower this time. But all the anticipation was worth it (and I'm not talking about the media hype either!).

Well the parents went to Dublin, the Boyf's parents have gone to Vegas and we're both still here...gives me an idea what it's going to be like without them all - scary - the good news is they're coming back!.

My Dad - absent minded chemist/professer got his pocket picked in Dublin - cue several minutes of having to explain WHY cancelling your cards IS a good idea. Cue Dad "but they dont have my pin number" - hmm it's called internet shopping. I was struck with the image of the police turning up saysing " we'd like to talk to you about the shipment of guns and detonators you ordered last week" - once they'd discovered he's a industial chemist (with a specialisation in volatile substances) I'd never see him again. Luckily sense, in the form of my mum, prevailed. Now we just have to wait to see if we got them stopped in time. On the plus side Mum and Dad had a great time. And I got to spend 4 days with Havoc - the worlds cutest beagle. Beagle Therapy involves lots of walks, fussing and just curling up on the sofa - I HIGHLY recommend it!

Checked out 'overheard in London' today to find some of the gems I used to hear in London ( there are LOTS of things I appreciate about the City - strangely despite the fact I couldn't live that closed in I miss it a great deal):
"

The hounds of hammersmith
'The train that has just left platform two was the last train to go through this station this evening. Get out before we release the dogs.'


Overheard by Luke, Hammersmith Station, over the tannoy
posted Monday, 12th March 2007". Makes me wonder if they still have the really cheerful announcer with the sense of humour on the Victoria line platform at Victoria station - he used to have me in stitches...


I've I got to warn you all the neighbours are going through a noisy patch again...at this rate I'm going to be making nocturnal postings - they were still playin' R'n'B at top volume at 1.45 this morning - I've been half asleep at work all day - now I'm home I'm wakin' up!


Finally - Mum and Dad only have freeview - spent a lot of time with 'TMF' and 'the Hits' on in the background. Have the new 'Fergie' song stuck in my head now (not my usual kinda music). It involves the 'immortal line' "If you ain't got no money take your broke @ss home' - I'll get my coat then? :op

Well due to me having a bandaged hand, no cheque book and various budgetry issues Boyf and I missed the 1st May renewal deadline for Cam UK. The world has not yet ended.


Boyf loves his new character and is going to renew as soon as we can work out how. I'm back at the conclusion I had reached at the end of the Northern Regional - I just dont enjoy this anymore and do not need to OOC stress that it can cause.


My ST (now DC) has been fantastic (and persuasive), My past ST has been/was great and gave me a wonderful character which I adore. My DC (until last month) who is also my Sire (who gained a IC childe where there was an NPC one previously and coped beautifully - even with all my questions about background and prediliction for getting into trouble!. I've met some great people - but the game has given me more stress than fun since late 2006 and I think now may be my bow out time....


I'm tempted to say 'give me a reason' because I love Sylindria and being a harpy's been different to say the least (and it's a HUGE part of who she is)but I've heard a couple of things and so far what it boils down to is 'you're fun to play with' which is lovely, flattering and means I'm doing something VERY right - but I need to play because I love the game - not just because my boyf loves it, and I dont love it anymore...it's just stress. :o(

I have six months before Sylindria's gone forever - even though that clock is already ticking...and so long as my ST doesn't kill her in the meantime maybe she'll be back. But for the moment..she's in suspension.




Kinda like me

Thumb update:

went to the Dr's today ( getting a very sleepy boyf out of bed to drive at 10am!). The good news is that they dont think the thumb's broken. The Bad news is that the bleeding under the nail and skin is really bad ( which explains why the top half of my thumb is black - clotted blood- and red where it's not black!). The solution - relive the pressure. This took 30 minutes - my GP burned/drilled a hole in my nail, broke the blood clot underneath, syringed a lot of the blood out and the rest hopefully should drain through the hole in the next few days...thus reducing the swelling.

I have a dressing on which must stay dry and should use my right hand as little as possible. This gets me out of the washing up but means there's a delay in the delivery of the second part of the harpy report for the Northern Regional and also of the Peterborough game last Friday. This was typed with my left hand only - which took longer than I care to admit!

On the other hand you're spared a blow by blow account of RAW and Smackdown - and just how amazing the Undertaker is in person ( and he's downright earie on TV!).

Thanks to those who have expressed Sympathy, WWE envy and stories. everyone else for putting up with my lousy typing! And special mention to Boyf as I'm like a bear with a sore head when I'm in pain.

all the best

Sylindria

This evening I'm going to the Peterborough Requiem Game. San Boyf as he's still Thesping on stage in 'Hello Dolly'.

Saturday I'm probably playing WoW - there's a Sylindria on the Emerald Dreams server...that is me. I did have the first ( according to the WoW directory Sylindria in Wow - there have been several imitators since...I deleated that version as I got bored - Sylindria Mk II is out there now wrecking havoc).

Sunday is my parents 40th Wedding Anniversary - attendence from Eldest daughter is mandatory.

Monday - I'm going to London with Boyf to see WWE Raw Live at Earls Court

Tuesday - I'm going to London with Boyf to see WWE Smakdown Live at Earls Court.

Both Monday and Tuesday's events were my Christmas gift to Boyf ( I think I'm going to enjoy it too though #grins#)

Hope you all have a great Weekend

Sylindria

I'm coming out of Hibernation, just once and then will return to doing my best badger impression ( sleep, eat and you only see one if it loses an argument with a car) for a while.

I haven't taken up religion. My mum got the Boyf and I tickets to go and see 'Underneath the Lintel' in London on the last night. It was on on at the Dutchess Theatre and starred Richard Schiff ( Who played Toby in 'The West Wing' - which my sister quietly addicted the family too a while back). Mum went, My sister and her boyf went ( twice) the first time on their own and the second with numerous friends and relations. The run was being cut short and boyf and I had kept prevaricating, so Mum got us tickets, dropped us off at the station and picked us up when we got back and basically organised us. When my mum takes up organisation you STAY organised ( out of a strange mixture of respect/fear and pure panic).

Anyway it's a 'different' play ( There IS something in the West End that's NOT a musical or the RSC - you just have to know where to look). It's a one man show and involved Richard Schiff on stage for an hour and 40 minutes (no interval) and it drew me in and had me practically in tears by the end - not the bawling your eyes out kind but the sort where they just roll down your cheeks silently and you cant stop them.

I'm not telling you the plot. I loved it and Richard Schiff was fantastic... but it did leave me with thoughts as all the best art does..

some of these are:

Would you recognise a miracle if you saw one?

There is a differece between acceptance and belief - we can accept something as fact and truth but we do not always believe.. Belief has 'fallen out of fashion' and seems to be purely linked to religion ir self belief now...but I'm not sure why.

Finally though - How do you prove a life? I've spent most of mine trying to leave as few traces as possible, (hell I even destroy the photographs)..and in proving one do you give meaning to your own?.

I'm just pushing thoughts around my mind, half formed and in no particular order.

Final randomisation. Underneath the Lintel closed early on Saturday night - across the road from the Duchess theatre is the Theatre Royal Drury Lane. This is currently closed while they spend over £25 million altering the stage for 'Lord of the Rings the Musical' - which will be awful...and probably run for years. Sometimes there is no justice.